Get out of my head

Sometimes it's really hard to get out of your head.  

I've been jogging for the last 4 months and I've worked my way up to 3 miles.  I do this 4 or 5 days a week.  My goal was to be able to jog a 5k.  Well, there is one coming up in a couple of weeks.  October 4th to be exact.  It's called ZipperQ, the K before the Q.  It's a great charity and I'd love to participate.   I've filled out the registration form 5 times and when it comes to actually submitting the form and making that small $35.00 payment, I always click the X and log out of the form.  Why do I do this?  

I'm scared... I start thinking about the trail, it's not what I'm used to.  I start thinking about all the people.  They are all probably really fit and have a great pace.  I start thinking about what all those people are thinking about me.  I start thinking about being the last one to cross the finish line and wondering if they are saying things like, "what is she doing?" "everyone else passed the finish line 15 minutes ago." "she's too fat to run."  In reality, they probably don't even care.  But, these are my fears.  
I've lost 45 lbs, I still have about 40 lbs to go, I feel good, but I still see that fat girl in the mirror and she won't go away.   

While I was out jogging this morning a song that I'd never heard before and didn't even know was on my playlist came on. I didn't have my glasses on, so I couldn't see the name of the song while it was playing. I've got to try and find it and listen to it again. This may become my new theme song.

"If you will say it, you’ll start to claim it. It’s amazing, if you can see it, you'll start to believe it. Don’t waste time thinking about the things that ain't right, all you have to do is make up your mind. And its Beautiful. You’re so beautiful. Can’t win if you don’t try, you're beautiful"

It was someone rapping and a girl singing along. I don't like rap music and like I said, never heard it before, don't know how it ended up on my phone, but I'm glad it did. It's a great message for everyone.

I'm tired of being scared that I can't do things.  I think submitting the form for the ZipperQ 5K (and showing up for the run) is something that I NEED to do.  I know I can jog 5k.  I know I'm not the fastest.  I know that if I do this, I'm sure it will help me lose 40 more lbs.  I know I will gain more confidence.  

I guess it's time to submit my registration form.

Anybody want to do this with me?  Here's the link www.zipperq.com

What a difference a year makes

I was looking through some old photos and came across this picture.  That was taken several years ago.  As you can see, I wasn't very happy.  I'd just gotten laid off from a job of 10 years.  I was fat and miserable.  

I can't tell you have many times I tried to lose weight.  I tried Weight Watchers 3 different times, I'd lose a little, get frustrated that everyone else was losing weight every week and I wasn't.  I felt like I was always hungry, I felt deprived and I would give up, the weight would come back with friends.  Does that sound familiar?  I've also tried prescription diet pills, HCG and shots, Real Dose, Ace and Plexus.  I had finally come to the conclusion I was just going to be fat for the rest of my life.

One day I saw a testimony on facebook about a product call Skinny Fiber.  I checked it out and watched for several months until I decided what the heck.  I was very skeptic, I assumed this product was going to be the all the other products that still lined the shelves of my medicine cabinet.  They offered a money back guarantee, so I ordered it.

I've got to tell you, I wasn't expecting to see any results.  The first thing I noticed was I hadn't taken my acid reflux medication in a couple of days.  I was taking 2 prescription medications AND chewing tums all day long to get relief from the constant burning and reflux.  It has now been over a year and I haven't had acid reflux since.  I also suffered from IBS.  I couldn't eat anything without having to RUN to the bathroom within minutes of my last bite.  That's gone also.  

I waited to step on the scales until my 2nd week of Skinny Fiber.  I was shocked.  I'd lost 11 lbs and 16".  I lined my pictures up side by side and the difference was incredible.  

I want this to be the LAST weigh loss journey you'll ever have to take.  I'm not on a diet.  I don't feel deprived.  If I really want to eat some fries, I'll have some.  I just don't want the entire order anymore.  If I want chocolate cake, I'll eat some, but now all I need is 1 bite, not a chunk of cake.

When I first started taking Skinny Fiber I weighed 207 lbs.  It's been 12 months and I've lost 46 lbs and almost 90".  During the first 9 months I didn't change anything except I quit drinking all carbonated drinks.  No more diet pop!  Now I drink plain water 99% of the time.  Every once in awhile I might have an iced tea if I'm out with the girls.  But water is now my drink of choice.  

My weight loss was a fast as some of my team members.  I've had a hysterectomy, my gall bladder has been removed and I absolutely HATED exercise with a passion.  But, like I said the first 9 months nothing changed.  In June a friend told me about a 5k training app she was doing call ZombiesRun.  Hey, I like zombie movies and thought it might be fun, so I downloaded it.  It contained walk/run drills and I was actually enjoying them.  Hmmm...I was actually exercising without throwing  fit.  Now I'm running 3 miles 5 days a week.  Crazy itsn't it!

I could go on and on and on about the benefits that Skinny Fiber has made to my life.  It has totally changed.  In the picture on the left.  That's a 2XL top and the jeans are a 18.  Now, I'm wearing medium/large tops and my jeans are a 10.  I was even able to get into my incentive pants which are a size 8.  Still a little too tight for public viewing, but with Skinny Fiber and motivation I'll get there.

Place your order today for Skinny Fiber www.imsbc4life.com

Running in the Rain

Sugar and spice and everything nice...yep, that's me.  I can't get wet or I'll melt.  If it's raining outside, I'm inside.  In a way I always envied the pictures of people dancing in the rain, playing in the rain, kissing in the rain.  But, I'm not a wet and wild kinda girl.

As most of you know, I'm trying to get my stamina back up from being sick a week or so ago.  Mostly walking, and started with trying to jog 1/2 mile without stopping and working my way back up to where I was before getting sick.  Saturday, I was able to jog 6/10 of a mile.  Sunday is my day of rest.  Monday, it was raining.  I really was bummed, but my sister had said something to me the week before.  "sprinkles, won't hurt you."  Those 4 words were banging around inside my head.  I kept thinking "I know, but I can't get wet."  Then I swear someone beside me said. "why not?"  My answer...I don't know why.  I headed out the door.  I stepped out from under the carport, it was windy and almost cold.  Giving up on my glasses within the first few feet, because I didn't get the special lenses that are water resistant.  I placed them on top of my head.   The little rain drops weren't cute like you see in the pictures.  Little girls laughing and jumping in the rain.  Nope, they felt like stinging needles and it seemed like they were completely focused on my eyes.  I wanted to just close my eyes, but I had to see where I was going, so I decided to just jog with only one eye open.  I really wanted to go back in the house, I was completely out of my comfort zone.  The wind or maybe it was really called a nor'easter was blowing against me, making this jog a real struggle.  Talk about resistance.  I don't know how strong the wind was but it might as well have been 60-70 mph winds. At least that's what it felt like.

Finally, I made it to my turnaround point and with the wind and stinging needles tattooing the back of my neck I headed home.  

I will admit that it wasn't really as bad as it sounds.  I didn't melt.  It was actually nice minus the invisible tattoo.  Plus I was pleasantly surprised to see that I was able to jog 7/10 of a mile.  I was on track to reach my 1.1 mile distance by Friday.  Dark Skies won't cloud my day.

Then I woke up this morning to another storm... I got this!  Got dressed and headed out the door with my fitbit ready to go.  As soon as I headed down the driveway a huge clap of thunder scared the crap out of me.  I went back inside.  I had conquered jogging in the rain, but this girl doesn't like thunder and lightening.  I jogged up and down the hallway and around the living room.  I can do this outside, stay close to the house in case I see lightening bolts.  I'll just run around the circular driveway.  After a few laps, and no more thunder, I headed down the road, ran up and down the neighbors driveways, but just stayed closed to the house. Eventually, the song in my ears and the steady rhythm of my feet hitting the pavement took over, I got a little to adventurous and went the other direction.  Suddenly, BAM!  Right beside me, I felt the ground shake and I almost peed my pants.  Thunder makes you run faster.  I hurried straight to the house, my dog was barking at me like I was an idiot for being outside in the first place.  Whew, inside, safe and sound.

I checked my fitbit and I didn't know whether to be excited or disappointed.  I jogged, without stopping, without walking .96 of a mile.  So freakin close to 1 mile.  I was elated because I passed my goal for the day of 8/10.  But dang the weather.  If I would have gone down just 1 more neighbors driveway and back I would have made a full mile.

Oh well, I'm not going to dwell on the what could have been, instead I'm going to roll around in the glory of oh my gosh I beat, no crushed my goal for today!!!

In fact I think I'm going to go out and jump in a few puddles and play in the rain.